لماذا يُتابِعُني أينما سِرتُ صوتُ الكَمانْ ؟

أسافرُ في القَاطراتِ العتيقه,

(كي أتحدَّث للغُرباء المُسِنِّينَ)

أرفعُ صوتي ليُغطي على ضجَّةِ العَجلاتِ

وأغفو على نَبَضاتِ القِطارِ الحديديَّةِ القلبِ

(تهدُرُ مثل الطَّواحين)

لكنَّها بغتةً..

تَتباعدُ شيئاً فشيئا..

ويصحو نِداءُ الكَمان!

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أسيرُ مع الناسِ, في المَهرجانات:

أُصغى لبوقِ الجُنودِ النُّحاسيّ..

يملأُ حَلقي غُبارُ النَّشيدِ الحماسيّ..

لكنّني فَجأةً.. لا أرى!

تَتَلاشى الصُفوفُ أمامي!

وينسرِبُ الصَّوتُ مُبْتعِدا..

ورويداً..

رويداً يعودُ الى القلبِ صوتُ الكَمانْ!

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لماذا إذا ما تهيَّأت للنوم.. يأتي الكَمان؟ ..

فأصغي له.. آتياً من مَكانٍ بعيد..

فتصمتُ: هَمْهمةُ الريحُ خلفَ الشَّبابيكِ,

نبضُ الوِسادةِ في أُذنُي,

تَتراجعُ دقاتُ قَلْبي,..

وأرحلُ.. في مُدنٍ لم أزُرها!

شوارعُها: فِضّةٌ!

وبناياتُها: من خُيوطِ الأَشعَّةِ..

ألْقى التي واعَدَتْني على ضَفَّةِ النهرِ.. واقفةً!

وعلى كَتفيها يحطُّ اليمامُ الغريبُ

ومن راحتيها يغطُّ الحنانْ!

أُحبُّكِ,

صارَ الكمانُ.. كعوبَ بنادقْ!

وصارَ يمامُ الحدائقْ.

قنابلَ تَسقطُ في كلِّ آنْ

وغَابَ الكَمانْ!

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أمل دنقل

I always believed that in a world with different cultures holding the complete rightness in an issue is actually subjective ..

Does that mean that we will stop in believing in what is right and what is wrong? Actually, No

you will still keep your own beliefs and own judgments on your life. but when it comes to others’ life, it should be more about integration and respecting others beliefs and judgments for their own life. that means that you will still hold all the love and care for them despite your differences in judging things, and why so? simply because you are Both Humans. that’s the most important thing that unites us all. We are All created from the same source. Other things are not actually more than someone who is supporting ManU and another supporting Arsenal in terms of keeping the humanity in both of us. – I know that kind of example wont be liked by some, but it’s actually the truth if we just broadened our mind a little bit. Someone who have a different belief than you is still simply keeping his humanity. A thing sometimes our acts show that we tend to forget.-

I’m saying that now because in a time the world was just celebrating the Christmas and a starting of a new decade. there are some happenings that I’m finding it’s hard to accept why is it happening?! that includes terror attack in US, clashes between Muslims and Christians in the middle east and finally the issue in Malaysia about using the word “Allah” by non-muslims. Unfortunately, those three incidents Muslims individuals – not because of the Islamic thinking but just because of stupidity- are causing it. I am even more mad than any christian for what is happening.

I was discussing with different people from the middle-east about those clashes and actually I cant find a reason for why this is happening. I know for sure not the Islamic thinking or the Christian thinking would allow this to happen. I’m sure that neither Jesus Christ nor Prophet Mohamed (P.B.U.H) would approve that to happen ever. Both had a message of love, peace and positive integration for the whole world not just in between them. It’s a simple fact that any one who will know both religions would simply approve. then how come such clashes could ever happen?!

I say for the middle-east as Muslims are forming the majority, they have the responsibility to build a strong trust relationship with Christians and other beliefs. Muslims should take the first steps to build the positive integration and love relationship with Christians. Some was complaining that Christains do not participate in public life that much especially in politics. I say, you should positively encourage them to do so. not to mention it is part of the non-democratic period the middle-east is going through in general. but we as Egyptians or Lebanese or Iraqi or whatever despite our beliefs should participate in the struggle to achieve what a human really deserves in the middle-east.

The other issue of a Malaysian court ruled that a Christan newspaper is allowed to use the word “Allah” in its Malay edition to refer to “GOD”. for those who don’t catch, the word “Allah” means “GOD” in Arabic and its used by Muslims all over the world to refer to “GOD”. So far, I cant see where is the problem?! does anyone can refer me to the wrong thing here?! another confusing issue!! the Malaysian government has appealed against the court ruling and some Muslims seem to be annoyed of the court’s ruling that some attacks happened on some Malaysian churches in the past few days.
I have been living in Malaysia for two years now and still have years to go. Simply I like the place. I find the Malaysian in general are more open minded to accept differences in race and cultures much more than other places. its kinda the nature when you grow up in a place where different cultures and races live together and I like that. I am spending a break in Egypt now and I remember when I first heard the news from my Dad’s friend here in Egypt 3 days ago. He said, did you hear about the attacks on the churches in Malaysia? I said: You sure, its Malaysia, such things don’t happen there usually, I know Malaysian are more open to do such things. He said: No, its there in MY. I said: its strange to happen in MY. Later when I went back home, I was referring to the news I have to admit. I’m finding its hard to understand why such a court ruling should be annoying to Muslims. the word “Allah” is already being used by Christians in all the Arab world and almost any place in the world it is allowed to be used. Actually, something my mind accept is, why we should go to a court from the beginning to ask for using a word to use it to refer to “GOD”?! that doesn’t simply make sense. I should be able to refer to GOD with the name I see its proper to do so with and no one should interrupt that right. It’s simply every one’s belief.

I simply know that those kinda of attacks in MY or clashes in the middle-east don’t simply represent any reasonable Islamic thinking or even represent any Muslim not in MY or the middle-east. Muslims should be the first who stand against those kind of silly actions that is totally insulting for our humanity.

People learn through life ..
people discover the real beauty in their way ..
if you didn’t move a lot .. if you didn’t see many things
then there is still much beauty hidden from your eyes ..
and when you go through an intense experience ..
really an intense one ..
although it may seems to be difficult to pass through or to really understand ..
especially at its beginning ..
it’s actually the real joy of life ..
where you can feel the real beauty ..

simple minded people – if that was the right term – usually just go through quick experiences ..
either bad or good one ..
but it’s always simple and quick ..

but I say ..
if you never go through an intense and difficult experience ..
then you never really lived ..
then you will never find the real beauty ..
real beauty will always show you .. how difficult is it to obtain
that’s part of its beauty ..

dedicated to the real beauty

These dayz .. its quiet hard to find a friend who can really understand ..
a friend who is not waiting for you to do a mistake ,,
then you will find out the real him ..

Im always saying that you will never know who is your real friends unless you experience a difficult time with them ,,
before that ,, everyone or almost everyone is good actually ..

in the difficult times .. a real friend will be the only one who walks in while all others are walking out ..

a friend who will be able to forgive when he understands you ..
because ,,
he should know everything about you and still like what you are ..

Im saying that not because Im experiencing something similar ..
Lucky me ..
I have those type of really real friends .. where I’ll never find like them ..
Im saying that .. because I see it a lot in front of me ..
People who are dying to find a mistake for their friends ..
and in a matter of seconds ..
he will turn from a dear friend to almost an enemy ..
who will just forget everything good about you ..

Im quiet amazed of those people ..
how can they find the real happiness in their friendship if they are like that ..
will they ever feel a permenant peace inside, towards their friendship??
or its just a temproary case ..

you have to ask yourself that question ..
do you ever get bored when you are together?!

because for those who are really a treasure for you ,,
just spending the time with them is a pleasure in itself ..
whatever you were doing during this time ..
doesnt matter really much ..

if you got this feeling ..
Just HOLD it ..
Never LET GO ..

A real friend is a real treasure ..

Im feeling a little bit hard these dayz ..
kinda never experienced that before ..
its one of the times when u hv to decide on wht way to choose ..
a way will decide a big amount of ur future life ..
..
dun want to speak wht exactly is that feling is about ..
but I trust myself to successfully pass it ..
..
I know my self well ..
I know Im stronger ..
I know for sure God will not fail me n wont leave me at these times ..
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I hv experienced something similar when I was 13 ..
n I did great ..
I never regreted wht I did that time ..
n was always proud of my decisions at that time ..
..
I hope it will be the same this time ..
Hope ..
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wht else?
..
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dun know ..
nothing much to say ..
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I can consider myself now in the mid-sem break since I just have finished my Physical Chemistry lab report
although this morning I still have 3 last lectures .. but if I go I wont give much attention anyway ..
I m already in the holiday mode 🙂
yesterday I had my Bahasa test and honestly I can consider it as my second worst test in UTP so far ..
after the Chemistry test2 in foundation 2nd sem ..
But still I m not feeling sad or disappointed in any way ..
dun ask why ..
I already told myself that this this subject is not for me ..
So, I really dun care ..
I m not in the mood of learning a new language this year .. unless it was Spanish or continue studying French ..

Yesterday morning our chemical class organised their first gathering ..
the idea was simple ..
as we are in Ramadhan we thought that we can make the gathering at the sahor time 4 a.m 😀
maybe around half of the class attended that “thats good” ..”
I cooked some kind of Egyptian food .. and yeah .. My C.mates said it was good ” thank you :)”
we had a good time introducing each other
yea it was good as a start .. for the CHEngineers Gatherings Committee
which I m honoured to be a member in it ..
and I would like to thank all the committee members for giving some of their time for this idea 🙂

Thank you, WanLin, Molly,Chiang Jinn, Jeda, Jaja, Nur Eliana, Nabil, Kumar, Akram and Anti
you were all awsome by the help and time you offered 🙂

I was always extremely enjoying the times when I meet people who are really beautiful from inside ..

I’m sorry ..